I was watching my little family as I sat in church today. I realized that I am a very lucky person. Regardless of what anyone else can see I see happiness. I didn't know that I could be this happy and content in my life. The pains and sorrows that I feel are mostly because of the suffering and afflictions of those around me. I have so many people that I truly love and care about who are suffering in one way or another. It is so difficult sometimes to know that there is little I can do to help them. I guess just listening would be good, but I am not good at that. I have a hard time shutting up and just listening. Thanks to my sister for reminding me to stop trying to solve her problems and just be a shoulder to cry on. :)
So here I am with my adorable family and close to perfect husband. I am a spoiled little brat huh. We have a home, and we have a stable source of income, our children are healthy, and our marriage is pure and strong. Sometimes I almost feel guilty at how many blessings I have. I wonder why I deserve all of this when so many others struggle? I understand that where much is given much is required, but it just feels like there is always more I could do.
How grateful I am that I have such blessings and the opportunity to try and help others. I hope this post doesn't seem like I am boasting or I think I'm all that or anything. I simply feel overwhelmed with gratitude to my Heavenly Father for my life. If anything...it is teaching me to be more compassionate to those around me.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Isaac has been bugging me all day to do "letters" with him. I try to work on his pre-kindergarten learning during the two younger kids name time. Well I told him I had a few things to do first and that we would have to wait until Ben went down for a nap. Isaac apparently felt this task needed to be rushed. So he cuddled Ben and put him down for me. Love this kid.
Friday, May 15, 2009
So, yesterday at the park my Mckenzie came up to me and said "look mommy I got gum." I asked her who gave it to her and she shrugged her shoulders and said "I did." So I then asked WHERE did you get the gum and she took my hand to show me. We walked under the slide and she points to a pile of A.B.C gum and says "you want some?" After puking a little bit in my mouth I made her spit it out an tried to tell her why it was gross. Man I hope she learns this one. ewwweweww yuck!
Monday, May 11, 2009
Yep, this is what it is all about. Mother's Day was awesome!!! I noticed that I have very few pictures of me with the kids. Mainly because I am the one taking the pics. :)
My little Kenzie calls this day Mommy's Day. I like it because I think that it is so important to be both a Mother and a Mommy. To me the difference is that a Mother is the one to nurture, guide, teach and disciplined the children. The Mommy gets on the floor and plays with the kids, she also gets dirty, does crafts, and is at times goofy just to make them laugh. I hope to find a perfect balance of the two Moms, so to speak.
The family did make me breakfast in bed though. I actually woke to the smoke alarms going off. When they brought the food in they, including Bryan, looked so pleased with themselves. I think I had eggs, and hash browns...pretty sure there was sausage and toast. I did see three strawberries but they were consumed by the kids before I even had a chance to smell them. It was so stinkin' funny cause I sat there with 3 little vultures waiting to consume what ever I didn't. lol One kid would say "hmm are you gonna eat that egg?" or "I sure wish I had some sausage." I think I had about two bites of each thing before I ended up giving it to the kids. They had all already eaten breakfast mind you.
We also celebrated my upcoming birthday on Mother's Day. I know I got the sort of got the shaft there but it was totally worth it. Bryan, his parents and a close family friend all pitched in to get me a new couch set. My old couch was a hand me down and pretty disgusting. I will have to post pics of the new couches soon. I am just so excited. I have never had new couches before. We have always had hand me downs or thrift store couches. I just feel so grateful for such a fun surprise. Now I don't have to be embarrassed when we have company over. :)